I don't like having come so close to death. I know what death feels like now, and I don't like it.
In most ways death is less scary to me now than it was before. Before death was sort of horrifying, in that unknowable kind of way. Now I know what it feels like--it feels like exhaustion, like being done with a very full day, and feeling relieved to let it all go, to let it all leak out of your mind.
It was kind of relaxing.
But that's not the scary part. That's not scary at all.
It's scary knowing in an intuitive and personal way that there is something else--a completely different state of being. And we're incapable of intuiting anything about it.
Yeah, yeah--I know Heidegger already wrote all about it.
But here is something that makes me feel better. Internet owls!
Thank god for the internet...whenever I feel blue, or lonely, or hopeless, I can always turn there to connect myself with humanity again.
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