hole in my head

Did I mention that my brain tumor is hollow? That can mean only one thing: I have a real, bona-fide hole in my head.

I always suspected as much. In fact, this explains a lot. So often I will put something somewhere and never see it again. Or write something down and forget what on earth it was I had in mind when I wrote it. Or--in the old days, of course--drive off to the store and forget what it was I came for.

Now I know where all those lost purposes went. They disappeared into the giant hole in the center of my brain, there to remain until they took up so much room that I had to get radiation and chemo just to move my body parts again.

Or something like that. I haven't worked out all the particulars. All I know is that my tumor is hollow. I'm kind of wondering what's going to happen to it as the chemo begins to shrink it. Originally I had fun imagining that it would go "pop!" and dribble out my ears. Now I'm starting to think that's exactly what will happen. I mean, at some point that outer perimeter will dissolve, right? So what happens then?

It's a little scary, actually. At least I know it won't hurt. Nothing in your brain hurts. If you're going to get cancer somewhere, your brain is a perfectly good place to keep it.